Its hard to control my emotions but i am trying.
I wish that i can say i am alright but at least i am trying to appear alright.
I don't know why i give myself such choices.
It has to be extremes.
All or nothing.
But when i get into such a state, i cannot choose otherwise.
Perhaps i cannot see what other options i really do have.
Perhaps other options are just too difficult.

However, i am glad people who stuck through with me.
Giving me encouragement.
Giving us encouragement.
At least, i have someone i can count on even when i cannot believe in myself or him,
there is someone whom i can hold on to and keep me anchored.

Thank you angie.